Dunno what I was thinking,
Leaving my child behind,
Now I suffer the curse and now I am blind
With all this anger, guilt and sadness,
Coming to haunt me forever,
I can't wait for the cliff at the end of the river,
Is this revenge I am seeking,
Or seeking someone to avange me
Stuck in my own paradox I wanna set myself free
Maybe I should chase and find
before they'll try to stop it
It won't be long before I'll become a puppet
It's been so long,
Since I last have seen my son
lost to this monster
to the man behind the slaughter
Since you've been gone
I've been singing this stupid song
So I could ponder
The sanity of your mother
I wish I lived in the present
With the gift of my past mistakes
But the future keeps luring in like a pack of snakes
Your sweet little eyes, your little smile,
is all I remember
Those fuzzy memories mess with my temper
Justification is killing me
But killing isn't justified
What happened to my son, I'm terrified
It lingers in my mind and the thought keeps on getting bigger,
I'm sorry my sweet baby, I wish I've been there.
It's been so long,
Since I last have seen my son
lost to this monster
to the man behind the slaughter
Since you've been gone
I've been singing this stupid song
So I could ponder
The sanity of your mother
Cocuğumu geride birakirken
Ne dusundugumu bilmiyorum
Simdi laneti cekiyorum ve artik korum
Butun bu nefret, sucluluk duygusu ve mutsuzlukla
Beni sonsuza dek avlayacak
Derenin sonundaki ucuruma ulasmak icin sabirsizlaniyoeum
Bu benim aradigim intikam mi
Yoksa acisini cikarmak icin aradigim bir insan mi
Kendi paradoksumun icinde tikildim
Kendimi ozgur kilmak istiyorum
Belkide onlar bunu durdurmayi denemeden once
Onlari arastirip bulmaliyim
Benim de bir kukla olmama az kaldi
Cok uzun zaman oldu
Oglumu son gordugumden beri
Katliyami yapan adama
O yaratiga kaybettim onu
Sen gittiginden beri
Su salak sarkiyi soyleyip duruyorum ki
Annenin akli dengesini sorgulayabileyim
Keske gecmiste yasasaydim
Gecmis hatalarimin odulleriyle birlikte
Ama gelecek yilanlar gibi cezbedip duruyor
Kucuk tatli gozlerin, kucuk gulumsemen
Tek hatirladigim
Butun belirsiz hatiralarim ofkemle oynuyor
Mazertler olduruyor beni
Ama oldurmenin gecerli bir mazereti yok
Ogluma olan sey, soklardayim
Aklimda can cekisiyor ve dusunce gitgide buyuyor
Ozur dilerim tatli bebegim, keske orada olsaydim